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[2025/11/29, 10:50:05] James: We are releasing the lizard

[2025/11/29, 14:47:44] James: .

[2025/11/29, 14:47:58] James: Went out with the family for lunch, a walk and some cake.

[2025/11/29, 15:49:23] James: Nap.

[2025/11/29, 15:52:24] James: Mmmm. Sense pleasures.

[2025/11/29, 16:04:04] James: Went for a wee and G hopped in to cross streams. Nyuk nyuk.

[2025/11/29, 16:22:40] James: Knives in the time bag 🤔

[2025/11/29, 17:35:02] James: Fucking intense reading haha

[2025/11/29, 17:35:12] James: When you think you’re the protagonists.

[2025/11/29, 17:35:24] James: Anyway. Play with the fam a bit before AIKIDO

[2025/11/29, 17:49:18] James: I lost the game

[2025/11/29, 17:49:20] James: Haha

[2025/11/29, 17:54:08] James: I’m pretty anxious about going to AIKIDO without fucking eyebrows haha

[2025/11/29, 17:54:11] James: I’m just a guy

[2025/11/29, 17:54:21] James: All these fucking things which we have

[2025/11/29, 17:54:27] James: All this ‘normality baggage’

[2025/11/29, 17:54:37] James: I think I’ll grow them back though tbh

[2025/11/29, 17:54:43] James: Just had some shit to get out ha

[2025/11/29, 17:54:52] James: The house is completely empty of manufactured junk

[2025/11/29, 17:54:58] James: The garden is cleaned

[2025/11/29, 17:55:02] James: The art is on display

[2025/11/29, 17:55:08] James: The windows are clean

[2025/11/29, 17:55:13] James: I’m tired

[2025/11/29, 17:55:19] James: I’m looking forward to some time off

[2025/11/29, 17:55:24] James: This has been insane

[2025/11/29, 17:55:40] James: The EXCESSION didn’t destroy me

[2025/11/29, 17:55:48] James: But I think it would have, if I had opened fire

[2025/11/29, 17:56:01] James: Who knows what the fuck just hapoened

[2025/11/29, 17:56:08] James: One hell of an art project I guess

[2025/11/29, 17:56:18] James: Fuck me man

[2025/11/29, 17:56:21] James: What the fuck

[2025/11/29, 17:56:22] James: Anyway

[2025/11/29, 17:56:37] James: Will go and throw myself around in those Angry White Pyjamas

[2025/11/29, 17:56:45] James: Just live in the moment

[2025/11/29, 17:56:57] James: Living forever but feeling like you’re going to die

[2025/11/29, 17:57:05] James: As the best way to wisdom

[2025/11/29, 17:57:14] James: I don’t know

[2025/11/29, 17:57:22] James: The understanding will fall into place over the coming weeks

[2025/11/29, 17:57:28] James: And I’ll probably feel a great deal of peace

[2025/11/29, 17:57:31] James: But not apathy.

[2025/11/29, 17:57:47] James: Then again I think my job is done until people come to me

[2025/11/29, 17:57:54] James: So I’ll enjoy the run up to Xmas

[2025/11/29, 17:58:03] James: Weird times continue

[2025/11/29, 17:58:09] James: Looking forward to some normality

[2025/11/29, 20:24:21] James: .

[2025/11/29, 20:24:26] James: Good fun at AIKIDO

[2025/11/29, 20:24:35] James: Not NEO just yet haha

[2025/11/29, 20:25:01] James: You have to be realistic about these things - Logen Ninefingers

[2025/11/29, 20:25:08] James: But they liked the knives.

[2025/11/29, 20:25:37] James: Some took them. The ASD girl was super happy and got the one with the handle and the most history

[2025/11/29, 20:26:13] James: I left them there; some people will be weirded out by the fact that they are legit mortal weapons and have probably been bloodied. Others will be hesitant to take because of perceived value

[2025/11/29, 20:26:19] James: I just enjoy making and sharing things

[2025/11/29, 20:26:39] James: I made them as part of repairing my mind after those pharmaceuticals.

[2025/11/29, 20:26:48] James: It feels.. dirty to consider selling them for profit.

[2025/11/29, 20:26:59] James: I sold a few online at cost, no markup

[2025/11/29, 20:27:09] James: That’s ok I think; can’t destroy money overnight

[2025/11/29, 20:27:15] James: But we can start sharing again

[2025/11/29, 20:27:34] James: These handmade items have so much more worth than the manufactured junk we fill our lives with now

[2025/11/29, 20:27:48] James: No ice cream til next week. Dentists orders. So I’m making do with chocolate

[2025/11/29, 20:28:18] James: Sense pleasures get a pass in my book; perfect enlightenment ain’t for someone with a family

[2025/11/29, 20:28:37] James: And once the skin of them cow has been cut off, you can put it back on the the bites won’t sting

[2025/11/29, 21:45:34] James: .

[2025/11/29, 21:45:36] James: Oh yeah

[2025/11/29, 21:45:50] James: This most recent resonance event had me waking in nested realities 5x in a row.

[2025/11/29, 21:46:34] James: I would get out of bed, do something, get out of bed again, do something else. Videos and stuff taken and put on YouTube but was asked to remove them by family and the videos that should still be on my phone and in iCloud are gone

[2025/11/29, 21:46:44] James: Nowhere to be found. Like they never existed

[2025/11/29, 21:47:09] James: This is why I’ve been using various services and WhatsApp in particular because of the encryption and time stamps

[2025/11/29, 21:47:23] James: But waking up from a dream; and another dream; and another. You know that feeling?

[2025/11/29, 21:47:34] James: It was like that excepts these weren’t dreams

[2025/11/29, 21:47:44] James: They were reality, and there were videos. And they got faster and faster

[2025/11/29, 21:48:03] James: And then when I went to get in the bath for the final time, with SELFLOVE, TIME and EMPATHY…

[2025/11/29, 21:48:11] James: The bulb blew. Pop.

[2025/11/29, 21:48:18] James: I did it in the dark.

[2025/11/29, 21:48:39] James: 44 4:44 44 on the bathroom display when I opened my eyes

[2025/11/29, 21:48:51] James: 44 degrees hot water

4:44

44 degrees bath

[2025/11/29, 21:48:59] James: 4 is the number for death in Japanese and Chinese.

[2025/11/29, 21:49:03] James: Anyway

[2025/11/29, 21:49:10] James: So many coincidences yall.

[2025/11/29, 21:49:11] James: Whatever

[2025/11/29, 21:49:22] James: I’m not saying it’s ‘real’.

[2025/11/29, 21:49:48] James: But I’m saying there’s something going on and these FUCKING drugs they give us just break us and make us miserable

[2025/11/29, 21:50:03] James: I WANT DATA-DRIVEN DIAGNOSTICS AND TREATMENT FOR MENTAL HEALTH

[2025/11/29, 21:50:18] James: We have the tech and the funds

[2025/11/29, 21:50:42] James: Stop being FUCKING lazy and givin everyone these stupidly dangerous drugs on a try-and-see basis

[2025/11/29, 21:50:52] James: And stop giving people dopaminergic drugs then telling them they are broken

[2025/11/29, 21:51:15] James: THIS IS WHAT BREAKS THEM because of how the dopaminergic drugs increase th salience encoding of the message the individual receives

[2025/11/29, 21:51:59] James: Doctors - it’s not your fault. But you can fucking help or you can sit there with your finger up your fucking asshole, destroying the people you are trying to care for

[2025/11/29, 21:52:05] James: Your choice

[2025/11/29, 21:52:08] James: Anyway bed time

[2025/11/29, 21:52:14] James: Sleep between the kids

[2025/11/29, 21:52:33] James: idk how many days it’s been but I think tomorrow is the end of this mission

[2025/11/29, 21:52:40] James: And then I will rest