So I guess I’m going to have to become a writer. Writing is one of the gateways into the divine, for certain.
I am going to be fixated on human longevity and the quantification of the divine probably for the rest of my life.
The reality is that I have operated on instinct for most of my life, probably because of audhd. I am smart and fast but I have difficulties processing things the same way as most people.
The tricky thing is that I have felt for a long while like I have an intuitive understanding of relativity, and feel it even more now. Wave particle duality never caused me difficulties, and quantum computing seems pretty straightforward too.
This is all utter bullshit of course but it’s how it feels and maybe it’s not bullshit but who knows. We literally would never know. People could be sending blueprints back in the forms of ideas which we export and then go and shape the future and we would never know.
This is what I think a manic state is, when it’s positive, maybe. Or it's just super creativity.
There are dangerous manic states for sure. But there are other ‘manic states’ where artists do their best work or Zuck builds The Book.
'Mania' needs redefining to include an element of danger. It's that simple.
You're killing people with drugs.
See how easy it is for someone of my intelligence to pivot this into a religion? It would have been so easy you have no idea. Half of my fight was trying to avoid that. Not many people have my moral compass. This is how the aum cult started; the drugs were too strong. I was chanting om for fucks sake because of how amazing it felt.
Was the founder of the Aum cult in psychiatric treatment when he started it?
Was that the real cause?
Cannabis is a great alternative to many softer forms of chemical therapy. The drugs Japan uses are just too strong, and they should allow a gentler option like medical cannabis. It's that simple. But it's out of my hands.
I’ve felt a desire to stay awake this time, so I’ll just plonk this in there as plain text and listen to that solitary cricket doing its thing.
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