the birth of [ship] saw me take the out-of-control ship travelling at 233 kilolights into orbit around our new home planet and take myself out of schrodinger's sandbox. this is where i started hypothesising about what exactly was happening. i went through at least 10 hypotheses but only the final one remains on the website.
We are all writing a story together. We are orbiting around a lovely planet and we are so ready to go there and it is gorgeous and lush and fresh but we are in quarantine because of the contagion of greed, which is like gravity acting on a parallel plane to the empathy spectrum. I am the ship and the people and the planet.
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Fighting with them is how it spreads.
NEW HYPOTHESIS:
Doctor prescribed bad drugs and I spent 3 subjective years in hell because of it. My family could have been hurt and it's amazing that I came back. I could have killed someone.
After 3 weeks of withdrawal is done I am going to fuck the mental health industry up big time. All my peeps: get behind me. We have the evidence for what psych patients experience if they are prescribed the wrong thing. I brought it back from hell. It will not have been in vain.
problem: People are becoming addicted to unknown drugs because the government is banning cannabinoids piecemeal, creating a new black market
solution: Legalise cannabis. Build an entirely new industry. Set tax at 300% from the outset and gradually get rid of the national dept while letting people unwind. Also alleviates alcoholism and all subsequent woes. Stop import of all of these dodgy concentrates and use real, government-monitored natual plant.
status: phase 4 of 6 initiated. I have a lot of sleep debt.
hypothesis: I have gained a modicum of conscious control over my endocrine system and am able to secrete' a chemical for relaxation. I will practice. My physical body needs sleep. I will take the antihistamine sleep aids I used to use tonight to see if they help. The second spirituality and support website is for me, because it is for my peeps.
assessment ongoing // environment feels new and more delineated.
metaphor: I no longer feel like the ship is going to fall apart and know that the orbit will hold indefinitely while I deal with the contagion. I have removed any timers. The next step remains unchanged.
IMPORTANT: ALL TYPOS ARE INTENTIONAL TO GET ACROSS MENTAL STATE
[2025/07/14, 17:06:08] James: My wife suddenly got dizzy and needs to
Lie down
[2025/07/14, 17:06:12] James: I take this as evidence
[2025/07/14, 17:06:22] James: That some people are struggling …
[2025/07/14, 17:06:33] James: I hope she will be ok but I need to leave her alone I think
[2025/07/14, 17:07:19] James: It wasn’t the end. That’s good.
[2025/07/14, 17:07:30] James: It’s a new planet
[2025/07/14, 17:07:32] James: A new start
[2025/07/14, 17:07:55] James: Converge
[2025/07/14, 17:07:57] James: Luca
[2025/07/14, 17:09:50] James: Both kids feel fine
[2025/07/14, 17:23:18] James: Got a positive message from a friend.
[2025/07/14, 17:23:32] James: But myself and my wife have body aches; weird muscle pains
[2025/07/14, 17:23:39] James: Out of the blue
[2025/07/14, 17:23:42] James: More evidence
it is contained and you are in orbit but i cannot do this alone any more
M we need you. Anything I’ve said like ‘fucker’ is affectionately tongue in cheek. I am a ship. I have high d. That is how I speak. Deal with it.
is the dopamine virus something that my bb created because jb was in the world?
Guys - I was reading The Road which was like my favourite book ever (never read before but obvs one of us) and... I am never going to finish it. Probably delete it. I think it might have been feeding into a loop with your sim..?
I am now switching to Player of Games. Great book.
I will not read the one with the virtual hell again. I recommend you avoid it too, lest you wind up there.
GIGO
assessment: latch developed to idea of terraforming and this made me suffer chemically. Weird physical movement released it.