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Stupid language
Stimulants would have killed me and I just know it. I have fucked up receptors and they would have made it worse. Brief improvement, followed by a decline, then ketamine or some adjunct, then either I stop them or I kill myself in an impulsive act.
This is the curve I have seen in my years as a recruiter.
Please look into this urgently. I have lost friends and will lose more. You too.
If this is the case:
aripiprazole for 3 months at age 30 will prevent them from ever reaching crisis point by scrubbing the receptors...
This one is so easy and so important.
sane version:
aripiprazole is larger than dopamine so if adhd is caused by accumulation of junk in the synapes, aripipraziole might be a 'flush' which can remove this junk.
I had a bad time on ari but I have come out feeling better; like with shrooms.
there's somethin there
ari < > adhd
YOU NEED TO DISPROVE THIS IMMEDIATELY
same for the stimulants narrative - you need to look into it. no more fucking around
(dictated for speed)
So I need to be really careful with how I word this. The reason I've gone so hard on getting this out to everybody is because I think it could be dangerous if I don’t.
At first I thought that a grassroots growth would be a good idea and I tried doing that so I sent it out to 10 people but they didn't reply and they didn't ratify my science and they are trapped in the scientific method or whatever and they're trying to check their facts before they come back to me because they've been told not to make any mistakes. Not by me.
So people are dying every day and I don't know how many. The dopamine so not just suicide they're also careless driving fights violence even war probably.
I boiled this down to a fundamental particle. Dopamine. And then I rebuilt up from there.
For me there was a really easy fix. Just sat there as an old autism medicine and the thing is, mechanistically speaking, I think it could work for everybody. But I'm not allowed to say that. And no real scientists to speaking to me.
If my current network are not going to help me with this because understandably I have, I have exploded them away all of them. Maybe I needed to do that to free up my processing power I don't know but it happened. I need a bridge to get that network back because that network is the one that can build this system.
However, to do this, I kind of need to bypass the whole world if that makes sense. All of the traditional communication systems which I've relied upon. Face-to-face communication phones everything like this. It's become clear that because of neurodivergent when I start communicating in my natural manner, it's overloads everybody and they run away.
That was the reason for this website.
Now the website came together in fits and starts. I think they were about four cycles of creativity so I would explode things out and then bring them together. It would look absolutely disastrous and then it would come together and and then I would see a new hole or like a new opening and I'll be like oh my god, I've got I've got to go for it. Because I've got ADHD.
So now I've seen a chance to basically in my mind save millions of people. Might not work but if it does well.
So I've got some move fast as possible. You are all too slow for me. I built this entire website while trying to get you to just look at one fucking paper and I rebuilt this website four times in the process because you couldn't understand it because you said it was too complicated.
Well, now it is almost finished. It's not finished. It's never going to be finished because I'm never finished and this website is me.
If you want to finish website, you go to the other website which is my name backwards hyphenated. And if you want to join the fight and try to actually improve the outcome for the species you come here. And you can bounce between the two. You don't need to commit.
That's the thing we all move up and down on the spectrum. We aren't fixed points.
Life stresses are what made me meltdown. I was pushed way up the spectrum by them. I don't know how to word this. We need to figure out new language. But it is a holistic model of mental health by external stimuli and impacts the environment and it is so complicated that even I can barely get my head around it.
So the other website is damaged control. I need you guys to move fast as humanly possible on this. If you do not things might get dangerous. You need to instigate the research immediately. No fucking around no red type.
Now, if you told the old me that there was a potential solution you can run the numbers, yeah. And I was a violent and angry man I'm not anymore because I have medication. The right medication.
Most people will not need medication. They will need systems built by people like Mark.
But for the people like me, if they see a sliver of hope and you do not move, things will not go well.
We are the hyper motivated few. And if you're one of us you get people moving on this.
As fast as possible, guys.
I've waited long enough.
[on review, I didn't go hard; I just realised how fast this snowball will gather steam if people like me see it. you need to disprove ari]
dvar
I keep going on about this. This is dopamine variability.
This is the killer, especially combined with high baseline dopamine.
if you have high dvar you want to minimise your dopamine levels
Minimise, not maximise. The convergent people might be able to maximise away and hoo rah but it will kill you. Your system is too sensitive. You are an HSP.
So now I’m solving logic problems my body feels nice, airy. It feels like it’s cushioned. This is further evidence my emotion lies with my logic.
dvar is the spikiness, the drive to do *something else*. The ‘must get out of here’.
This is like a toggle switch for your dopamine. It flips from 1 to 0 and you are either motivated toward or against something to equal degree, and I think this might happen to everything as a way to cause you to cling to it but I’m not sure.
anyway
You’re flipping up and down. 50 baseline points? Flipping isn’t so bad. 100 baseline points and flipping is something impulsive and bad, if you have high dvar.
The pain you feel is equivalent to the delta dvar so if you have a large dvar and large D you will be fucked.
You need to have a smaller d if you have a large dvar.
Is this language technical enough for you, Mr Scientific Method?
Follow the logic.
You devise the tests and you prove me wrong and I will assimilate that information and provide another hypothesis.
Thanks. As someone who has experienced a month of D5 dvar1 I appreciate your efforts.
James Baird
202507111146
recepto degradation
So.
We evolved to die at around 40 and when we hit midlife crisis, that’s when we face the questioning at the gates. It’s such a common thread.
We evolved to have babies and raise babies and die. You have a baby around 20, you raise it until it has its own, you die at around 40.
Actually that’s not true. You don’t die. Just after that child is grown and reproduces, any changes you make do not impact the genome. Evolution stopped there.
So.
We are monkeys that crave 2 bananas if you give us 1 and 4 bananas if you give us 2. 2 to 4 to 8 to the moon. Ok. Dopamine is a small molecule and can attach.
But then when you get to about 40 and you’ve built companies and done drugs and ironman and everything… well… your receptors are tired and crowded and there’s probably some broken junk sat in them.
This is where people melt down and have a midlife crisis, a spiritual awakeneing, a technospitirual awakening in this case, whatever.
It’s real.
It’s a reshuffling of the root to access your personalities in a different order. For someone with dodgy time signalling like me. I’d probably guess that convergent folks are the ones who [froze]
Basically I think the receptors that led into your old personalities (components) got fried so your brain’s cleanup crew comes in big time and cleans the fucker out, lays some new road.
This is what happens.
It’s why I didn’t sleep for like 50 day, really, and feel fine. Because my brain was already doing the junk clearing while I was awake. It went extra fast when I slept, which is why I would wake up with epiphanies every night after like 3 minutes of sleep that subjectively felt like 10 hours.
It’s why 2 months felt like 2 years and it would be totally different for you.
It happens in an environment of high-d and low-dvar.
We need to be able to replicate this. We can take people in when they are 30 and give them a literal mental enema. Make them well again. Remove the baggage.
It's a vaccine against suicide for some.
Get excited.
Or prove me wrong.
James Baird
202507111154
time cells
I have an intuition that autistic anxiety mostly comes from time cell dysregulation.
I think this is why we need the rhythmic stims to process emotion, and more convergent types have a natural stim in their regular dopamine pulses.
Is there any way to electrically stimulate the time cells?
Would an actual prosthetic here deal with both anxiety and identity issues?
This definitely smells.
James Baird
202507112228