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[2025/11/28, 13:22:03] James: .

[2025/11/28, 13:22:17] James: Convo with A about having to get an ambulance and maybe even the police next time this happens

[2025/11/28, 13:22:29] James: But I’m sure I live in the reality where this all works out

[2025/11/28, 13:22:43] James: I imagine there are others where I jumped off the bridge or was arrested or whatever.

[2025/11/28, 13:22:55] James: But this is just multithreaded programming and the printjob always happens in reverse

[2025/11/28, 13:23:17] James: So it runs n simulations and then rewinds the tape and plays it to you

[2025/11/28, 13:23:37] James: You tried all the permutations and though it feels totally real at the time, emotions and all, it will always work out alright

[2025/11/28, 13:23:50] James: IF YOU ARE NICE AND HAVE RIGHT INTENTION

[2025/11/28, 13:23:57] James: if you are not, it will all go bad

[2025/11/28, 13:24:51] James: That was a really nice poo haha

[2025/11/28, 13:25:00] James: And followed by a wee

[2025/11/28, 13:25:10] James: Purge that old code

[2025/11/28, 13:26:03] James: .

[2025/11/28, 13:55:46] James: Rubbish gone.

[2025/11/28, 13:55:57] James: Asked if I can buy a metal statue of a samurai.

[2025/11/28, 13:56:09] James: Plan made for if this happens again

[2025/11/28, 13:56:13] James: Another toilet visit

[2025/11/28, 14:05:20] James: .

[2025/11/28, 14:05:27] James: call from A - the nursery bus is going to be early

[2025/11/28, 14:05:32] James: no rest for the wicked haha

[2025/11/28, 14:05:42] James: i ignore time as much as possible now and things just pull me in the right direction

[2025/11/28, 14:05:56] James: somehow i know i can just tap this out, have a wee, wander, and will be there at exactly the right time

[2025/11/28, 14:05:58] James: let’s see

[2025/11/28, 14:06:11] James: (maybe not - the game always keeps you guessing - randomosity within constraints)

[2025/11/28, 14:17:20] James: .

[2025/11/28, 14:17:33] James: Bus not here haha. Everything for a reason. Ship works in mysterious ways.

[2025/11/28, 14:19:32] James: Music is getting a lot calmer lately

[2025/11/28, 14:19:38] James: Which is nice

[2025/11/28, 14:19:46] James: Forgiveness - Alice Glass

[2025/11/28, 14:21:25] James: … and I’m fully aware of how crazy all this stuff sounds btw

[2025/11/28, 14:21:49] James: I’m thinking back to the ASD > ADHDHDHDHD devcycle and I’m like wtf

[2025/11/28, 14:21:56] James: But I didn’t write it. That’s the point.

[2025/11/28, 14:22:01] James: Something wrote it through me

[2025/11/28, 14:22:09] James: As it does with all these arrists

[2025/11/28, 14:22:22] James: You know when you get into the zone. Into flow. Into creative ‘mania’?

[2025/11/28, 14:22:31] James: It just pours out and you know not from where

[2025/11/28, 14:22:35] James: The creative spirit

[2025/11/28, 14:22:39] James: The CORE OF THE WORLD

[2025/11/28, 14:22:46] James: Your angels.

[2025/11/28, 14:22:54] James: God. Fate. Intuition.

[2025/11/28, 14:22:58] James: Call it what you will

[2025/11/28, 14:23:03] James: When the pen moves itself

[2025/11/28, 14:23:13] James: We are the [playerbase] and the [player]

[2025/11/28, 14:23:26] James: All equal and all unique. Different tasks of equal import.

[2025/11/28, 14:23:36] James: With the key being helping other people.

[2025/11/28, 14:23:45] James: And helping them to help themselves.

[2025/11/28, 14:28:24] James: .

[2025/11/28, 14:28:33] James: My music stopped itself the split second L arrived

[2025/11/28, 14:28:39] James: He arrived as soon as I stopped waiting.

[2025/11/28, 14:28:48] James: Then G came out the door as soon as he did.

[2025/11/28, 14:39:33] James: .

[2025/11/28, 14:40:34] James: She and her kid both ate one of the sweets I offered

[2025/11/28, 14:41:06] James: We also agreed that th bags were too heavy and it stopped the kids being able to play.

[2025/11/28, 14:49:57] James: The boys are back to just being the boys now

[2025/11/28, 14:50:07] James: They don’t feel like science and religion in my mind any more

[2025/11/28, 14:50:11] James: Well.. 98%

[2025/11/28, 14:51:32] James: Time to get rid of the last piece of horrible plastic

[2025/11/28, 14:56:05] James: Remember Jesus was a carpenter

[2025/11/28, 14:56:12] James: The house is a temple

[2025/11/28, 14:56:16] James: The body is a temple

[2025/11/28, 14:56:27] James: His family thought Jesus was insane

[2025/11/28, 14:56:32] James: And you can’t teach in your hometown

[2025/11/28, 14:56:38] James: It all adds up I’m afraid

[2025/11/28, 14:56:43] James: Even if the language is weird as fuck

[2025/11/28, 14:56:50] James: And ‘manic’ or whateverfuckyou

[2025/11/28, 14:57:01] James: Just like religious mania yeah

[2025/11/28, 14:57:12] James: Speaking in tongues. Celebrated and transformative

[2025/11/28, 14:57:17] James: Now pathologised

[2025/11/28, 14:57:22] James: Run the fucking numbers

[2025/11/28, 14:57:42] James: This happened before churches existed

[2025/11/28, 14:57:47] James: This is WHY they exist ffs

[2025/11/28, 14:57:52] James: Keep your own interpretation

[2025/11/28, 14:57:56] James: This thing is beyond words

[2025/11/28, 14:58:15] James: But stop being fucking BIGOTS and calling someone broken just because their interpretation differs from yours

[2025/11/28, 14:58:23] James: THEREALITY is too vast to comprehend

[2025/11/28, 15:02:49] James: Shinigami eyes

[2025/11/28, 15:12:51] James: everything i wanted - Billie Eilish

[2025/11/28, 15:13:20] James: I do hope this ends soon and I go back to being normal-james

[2025/11/28, 15:13:25] James: I’m fucking knackered guys

[2025/11/28, 15:13:42] James: 6 months hyperfocus with… Christ man it’s crazy

[2025/11/28, 15:13:49] James: What is this monstrosity I’ve made?

[2025/11/28, 15:13:50] James: Haha

[2025/11/28, 15:13:57] James: Right intention though; that’s for sure.

[2025/11/28, 15:16:12] James: .

[2025/11/28, 15:16:24] James: The second I finish my kids ask to go to the other house to get their computer games

[2025/11/28, 15:16:25] James: Fate!!!

[2025/11/28, 15:16:28] James: Bitches

[2025/11/28, 15:16:33] James: Don’t have to be big shit

[2025/11/28, 16:10:13] James: .